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Monday, March 12, 2007

sigh darling i really miss you alot alot alot alot alot alot. it bothers me so much that i can't just pick up the phone and you'll just be nine numbers away. i miss your spastic smile and your kiddy actions :'( cried a little in the bus today. kind of stupid right :( sigh hope you're having fun. i want to ruffle your hair and hug you really tight. i want to be in your company again. even if it means more than an hour of travelling. i don't mind being stupid or retarded in your eyes. everything's worth it as long as you love me.

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Sunday, March 11, 2007

dar i'm so sorry my phone died without me knowing so i didn't know you send another two messages after that so i couldn't reply. argh. IM SO SORRY. :( hope you're well and happy and enjoying your flight now, or have you landed already? i so feel like calling you and hearing your voice :'( i love you. the first day without you. holidays without you aren't holidays anymore. come back soon.

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hehes dardar! I LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE YOU. :D i'll miss you lots. :(sigh reallly going to miss you like crazy. please miss me too k. :) remember to bring your jacket along with you and be nice to mom! hahas and I WANT DOPEYYYYYYY!!!! :D okayokay?

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Sunday, February 25, 2007

hey darling! blogger forced me to change the account to a google account =.= so err hahas i know its really late now i just finished my econs slides YAY! :D okayokay i'm going to sleep now just hope that you'll eat something really really soon and that you'll have a speedy recovery. i'm loving you more and more each day. :)

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Tuesday, January 30, 2007

I LOVE YOU MORE THAN YOU LOVE ME! =D

omg PE totally sucks man. that stupid baldy guy thinks hes so damn experienced at PE and all. boo. =(he totally tortured us by making us run rounds =(abuse. we're all gonna give him a parent's letter every single week. hes gonna get 33absentees every week! yay. =D i promoted this idea. =X

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hey dar :) haven't been posting normally in a long long time. school's kind of bad i mean the workload and lectures and tutorials all the math concepts are so hard to understand and time seems to pass really fast i think i need math tuition soon there's quite a lot of stuff for me to catch up. sigh but other than studies the rest are quite fun. mm the class is still ohhhkay but we're just warming up and i think we're going to have fun times together so yeah it'll be not bad. :) hey i'm posting so that i can take a break from econs essay i'm not cheating your feeling okay :x they're really hard to do rahh.

i think i'm too scared to try sometimes and especially when i'm tired i suppose i'm scared of failing. yeah i need someone to stone with i think. i really miss lijie she's such a dear. argh i don't know what i'm thinking about i just hope my complexion will improve soon and that menses won't come til fri. pleasepleaseplease.

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you

Saturday, January 27, 2007

my phone's switched off i just hope you're not angry or anything i want to curl up and be in my own world today and for the last time, i am sorry.

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you

you're not replying, i don't know what to do. yeah i know you're sleeping. i don't know what the hell is wrong with me this whole week. i'm just really sorry.

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Sunday, January 07, 2007

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ahh not even one full week into start of school and i'm missing ny already. hc's really old and run down and the lt leaks? sigh. :( pooey. i'm soooo not looking forward to study there. i mean i don't mind a new environment but this kind of 'new' environment isn't really appealing. and when i've just gotten to know more about the people in my og, the management's going to break us up and herd us together with new people. aiyah just get down to work and forget about games and orientation luh they suck by the way. :)

hahas. :x it doesn't feel like a new year! bahh 2007. while i was bathing yesterday i thought of 2006 and these were what i remembered:

- distanced a little from the group because i was so close to sylvia. went through lots of friendship turmoil but got closer to lijie and ming in the end despite all that. the only people whom i feel apologetic to are xinying and lijie and cor. was wrong about some things but mostly right about the rest.

- went through all that band and comm and section and sec 3s shit, knew more about band stuff. got extremely pissed off over alot of matters and yeah, cried over them too. wasn't there much for the section but was there for sylvia. had been on her side all the while and stood with her against the comm.

- band concert and ny family concert. totally loved the vch and esplanade and hahas yay! i still keep the backstage pass. :) my last concerts with the band. didn't feel sad though.

- then there was passing down. was totally looking forward to it, because i was so tired of putting up with ridiculous demands by msc and matthew and tolerating the massive amount of shit jonathon was shoving down my throat. felt sad on the day itself not because i was leaving the band, but due to the fact that sec 3s still couldn't understand. i still don't think we're in the wrong.

- projects and sch work weren't easy to manage either, when group mates didn't do a single shit. sleepless nights and last minute rushings left me lots of red marks in online reports and both physically and mentally drained. small assignments and big portfolios accumulated till i was so sick of sch i needed a break desperately. mm but achieved high marks in projects so, yeah kind of balanced everything.

- hardcore mugging with lijie after sch everyday when eoys were just around the corner. spent loads of time in music lab and canteen. really grateful for all her help and company. talked and laughed and got stressed up a lot. i'm going to miss seeing her everyday. :(

- went to the airport to send cor off. wasn't really sad, maybe i'm used to saying goodbyes.

- really looked forward to nov and dec hols was sooooo tired. shopped quite a bit with sylvia lijie and jing and worked at emitasia. :) got to know more people and hahas little tactics and some handy skills i suppose. might be going back there again this year. evelyn's really nice.

mm yep i think that's about it. had been a really tough year, due to my lousy time management and getting too involved in things i shouldn't get involved in. was a hectic year and big rollercoaster ride. yep. hahas but good stuff happen too. like, GETTING TO KNOW YOU! even though it took so long for us just to exchange nos. hahas :) I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. i think knowing you was one of the best things that happened. :)

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Wednesday, December 27, 2006

hey dear aye you cut hair so long one ar. okay nvm. mm kind of feel like blogging but don't know what to blog about. sigh i'm constantly worrying about the tadpole meeting the egg omggggg i think its the first time i want menses to come so badly. ah wells not up to me to decided right. hahas wait till i really find out la i think i'll know what to do. :) okay i'm scaring myself and you too so we shall both stop thinking about it. UH HUH i go bathe okay got to catch project runway and the nine o clock show hahas its so funny. OH YA I WANT CHICKEN! :) omg i still haven't decide on which present to give to which junior ahahahas :x nvm la can decide on the bus tmr. YAY.

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